force of a whisper

I often wonder:
do I really matter?

not in a self-pitying
way of question,
but rather more
of a philosophical sense
so-to-speak.

does everything that i do,
everything that i say;
that i think
really
affect everything
and everyone around me?

do my actions really
mean so much?
i often feel 
like my existence
is nothing more
than a mild
force
of a whisper


in other words

i feel like

<sub>i'm 

not

here</sub>